tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61613872011-04-21T13:43:38.389-07:00Unwritten..cerayenoreply@blogger.comBlogger1751100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-7194972139182322952008-05-18T23:29:00.001-07:002008-05-18T23:30:53.125-07:00heyyy so if anyone see this lol i'll be back again from june 6th - july 4th this year, email/facebook me make arrangements to hang out if you don't already have my contacts! =)cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-36992787836673693512008-03-28T22:52:00.000-07:002008-03-28T22:53:17.348-07:00does anyone blog anymore?cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-3038539909549604112007-07-11T00:37:00.000-07:002007-07-11T00:39:11.694-07:00For those interested, I'm back in the good ol' beautiful sunny island on July 31st =) And I'll only be here for the month of august. Email me/contact me/leave me a message here if you wanna meet up! =)cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-40563263912327461972007-04-18T12:55:00.000-07:002007-04-18T12:56:35.227-07:00when everyone has a reason, I feel like giving up....just when I needed you most.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-19628723672041981712007-03-22T14:58:00.000-07:002007-04-05T01:27:47.528-07:00people ---- up organized religion and what they think it's all aboutthey make use of God, they make use of people.I don't understand what is going onI don't understand what is happening to all of uswhy are we hurt like this?what happened to us?but thank God for all of you,We're all in this togetherand we'll make it out aliveI know God will keep us.all of us.if there's one thing I believe fully cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1170462058555781742007-02-02T16:20:00.000-08:002007-02-02T16:20:58.566-08:00funny how you said people never changelet me tell you something babylife is strangejust waiting now...for them to come around.just waiting, to get out.just waiting...for the sun to shine again.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1167701749917344112007-01-01T17:34:00.000-08:002007-01-01T17:35:49.930-08:00Dearest Lord,I thank you for this wonderful and beautiful year 2006, it was simply incredibly and tremendously awesome! I have done nothing to deserve such blessings, and I just wanna thank you sooo much for all the people you've put into my life and all that You've done, for all of us.Please bless 2007, make it yours, make it good =)Everything is beautiful in Your willThank you once again!!Amen.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1167025803925329102006-12-24T21:49:00.000-08:002006-12-24T21:50:03.936-08:00May everyone have a wonderful and awesome Christmas..this is the season of love, joy and new hope.may we not forget the true meaning of Christmas...God bless you all, always.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1164507197251422392006-11-25T18:09:00.000-08:002006-11-25T18:13:17.266-08:00It's snowing.school is ending. I don't want it to. but i know many people who do.but this has been my best semester yet.can't thank God enough...all good things come to an endBut the friends you make, the smiles you give,the memories you take...last forever...it's snowing.another world before me, crystal clearlike there's no one else but you and I.my heart against the world...with the world.I cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1164264307366872462006-11-22T22:44:00.000-08:002006-11-22T22:45:07.366-08:00THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH MAYE FOR DOING THIS AGAIN!!!!You're simply awesome dear =)cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1162323631862960412006-10-31T11:31:00.000-08:002006-10-31T11:40:31.876-08:00october = month of healing...I found you once again. =)It has been such a lovely month, well the latter part of it.oct 21st: unite in worship conference (great concert and worship performances!)oct 25th: ethiopian group dinner (fun fun fun!)oct 27th: friend comes to visit me on campus (sees my yummy eye-candies lol)oct 28th: commencement of sat. fellowship (so much laughter!), usual cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1160354177847623932006-10-08T17:35:00.001-07:002008-03-28T22:54:57.464-07:00people always leave.stay with meplease... cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1157511494495418762006-09-05T19:39:00.000-07:002006-09-05T19:58:14.523-07:00ALRIGHT, so summer's officially over..and what can i say, tis' all been like a beautiful, endless surreal dream. these 4 months have been soo super amazing, i feel like the most blessed girl in the universe..and truly, with these memories, I can die even happier. Thank God for the most awesome summer EVER, i cant believe all that has happened, the memories are priceless and unbelievable..the cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1150418533753906282006-06-15T17:39:00.000-07:002006-06-15T17:42:13.780-07:00heyy guyzi'm back in this beautiful island!..this is just an announcement that the hp number u have of mine may not be working. act i dun think it's in use anymore since i cant send out or receive anything. so pls call me at my home phone or sth if u wanna meet up and chillllllll outtttt ok? =) God bless you allL!!! =Dcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1144526127668723452006-04-08T12:46:00.000-07:002006-04-08T12:55:27.686-07:00Last day of school was yesterday! and then finals through april, it's like wowwww, my first year is over already?! it just went by sooo crazy fast, but that's cool, coz that gives way to summer, which everyone here is looking forward to =) Thinking back on my first year, yeaa, it was pretty cool, hmmm..i don't know if it's what i expected coz i had no expectations coming in, in sept..but it cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1142971349691377282006-03-21T11:38:00.000-08:002006-03-21T12:02:29.770-08:00After months of word silence, I guess it's finally time to say something. especially for those who've been wanting me to do so =) well, spring is here!! and it's gorgeous that winter is over. enough dark, dreary depressive days already! i have only 3 more weeks of my first year left!! that's crazzzzy, it was barely yesterday that i was at my first day orientation! yea, but a whole month of exams cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1134270734133278062005-12-10T19:09:00.000-08:002005-12-10T19:12:14.133-08:00Nobody really understands anything anymoreNo one really gets youNothing really matters anymoreI could die and be happyI've lived enough.tired of all the brokennessthe hurt, the empty wordsbroken promises, broken trustthings and people sprawled out everywherewe're like soul slutsdamn damn damni needa get out.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1133910066193348112005-12-06T14:55:00.000-08:002005-12-10T19:07:03.586-08:00HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEARESTLandon=) on the 5th...6 years =DFrom one of the most beautiful stories I've ever ever read, in my life...Dream Children:...as if her being broke slowly into tiny pieces and spread itself over the world.....and yet was able to send her thoughts anywhere, as if her mind contained the entire world.But what did it matter, on the level where they had met? He traveled so cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1131173927280177812005-11-04T22:46:00.000-08:002005-11-04T22:58:47.290-08:00I had a dream of nearly dying in an earthquake. and before my last moments, I said a prayer..and that is most significant for I hope I will have the chance somehow to talk to my Creator before death darkens my door, here on this beautiful earth. and I never like having dreams of earthquakes, ESPECIALLY here, in Vancouver. and no one I know really likes having those too.because they've been cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1130889535196598762005-11-01T15:57:00.000-08:002005-11-01T15:59:33.903-08:00It's been so long since I have met You hereSince I have said these words or cried these tearsAnd like a child would come, I run into our secret placeAnd as the music fades, the tears are rolling down my faceI am alive in this momentIn this moment I am foundI am alive in this momentIn this moment I belongIt's been so long since I have met You hereSince I have heard You speak or let You nearAnd cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1129606163257942892005-10-17T20:26:00.000-07:002005-10-17T20:29:23.263-07:00There is a time for everything...and now that time has past.Maybe one day we will understandwhy some things have to endwhy some things can't lastwhy some things come to past...but be thankful for every given momentto love, to treasure, to hold every blessing from abovethis is life babyand it's still so beautiful despite all the tearscerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1129001757984296672005-10-10T20:35:00.000-07:002005-10-10T20:35:58.036-07:00We laughed, we cried
And all the while we felt so alive
It was you and me
You grabbed my hand and you made me see
What it could feel like
And what it might be like
You wrote my name in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And I dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Some things last
Some cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1128053010547558572005-09-29T20:55:00.000-07:002005-09-29T21:03:30.553-07:00it's funny how people change...they're still your friends and all but it's different.I need some space from you.....and then i realisewe're ten thousand miles apart alreadyI don't know every detail anymoreneither do youI don't really remember how it was likeI just know it was good...so do youHow we growHow we grow apart...It's sad when one cares so much to the point of tearsand the other's cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1127793827793413242005-09-26T20:49:00.000-07:002005-09-26T21:03:47.800-07:00Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cableAnd life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.No one can find the rewind button girlSo cradle your head in your handsAnd breathe... just breathe..And realize for once...The miracles that were around you all this whilecerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1127464526158443522005-09-23T01:34:00.000-07:002005-09-23T01:35:26.156-07:00Always just a heartbeat away, from you. (:Love,Maye.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1127456594998729772005-09-22T23:22:00.000-07:002005-09-22T23:23:15.003-07:00God help me...give me strength and truthwisdom to do what's rightwithout hurting anyoneYou know You mean more than anything to meLordI'd give it all up for you..Just let me know when.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1126053035782047782005-09-06T17:28:00.000-07:002005-09-06T17:30:35.786-07:00oh yea university baby...ubc's orientation was kinda boring actually, but i cant wait for classes and stuff, it's gonna be soooo cool..oh, the pep rally was wild today, kinda fun...wow, a whole new world...in terms of academics, outside stuff, matters of the heart...=)I thank God for giving me lifeand all that is has to offer...So long status quoI think I'll just let goYou make me wanna be braveIcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1124251359923204692005-08-16T20:59:00.000-07:002005-08-16T21:02:39.923-07:00who told us we'd be rescuedwhat has changedand why should we be savedfrom nightmares...we're asking why this happensto us, who have died..to live...it's unfairthis is what it meansto be heldhow it feelswhen the sacred is tornfrom our lives...and you survive...this is what it isto be lovedand the promise waswhen everything fellwe'd be heldcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1123708997987388352005-08-10T14:19:00.000-07:002005-08-10T14:23:17.993-07:00All I amAll that I ever could betoo beautiful to be truetoo real to be youtoo surrealthis immortalitycerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1122595692409505092005-07-28T17:06:00.000-07:002005-07-28T17:08:12.410-07:00Thank you.All I can say.Words run out of lettersWhen it comes to whatYou, O Lordwould do for me.July in Singapore may be overbut August here...is just beginningis life awesome or what? =)cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1119812558392440692005-06-26T12:01:00.000-07:002005-06-26T12:05:41.620-07:00summer days are foreverthe best of 3 worlds...you and I ...were meant to meet.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1118943278879083252005-06-16T10:30:00.000-07:002005-06-26T12:04:27.406-07:00O GodI can't believe this is happening to methe hottestbestlooking guymy eye candymy crush.......awesome personality...so soft, caring, kind...real....and you like......me...wow.still reeling from that night...when the sky darkenedwhen the moon rosewhen the stars crystallisedwhen you told me...when I thought I'd neverfind anyone again...when you poured outa part of your soulwhen....when...cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1118006060284136522005-06-05T14:13:00.000-07:002005-06-05T14:14:20.290-07:00Prom was great =)thanx for the handmade flowers,corsage, necklace..Thank God for the special timeI'll miss you when you're gone...cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1117756585348849382005-06-02T16:49:00.000-07:002005-06-02T17:00:54.043-07:00But I can't help falling in ____ with youThose evenings are dreamy, beautiful, nolstagic...I don't want them to endThey're so special to meAre they to you too?& that thing you gave me...omg. why would you give it tosomeone like me?You could have given it to themillion other girls you knowwhy methat was the sweetest thing everYou completely melted meIt's not just because...you're the bestlooking cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1117156065291097032005-05-26T17:58:00.000-07:002005-05-26T20:45:24.476-07:00ahhh...NOOOO school sooo cannot end yeah? coz it rox totally...geez..anyways, it's been pretty cool lately...hhaha, gotten more contact with my eye candy (almost crush? hm, we'll see), and he's juz awesome, really...for example, he's so accomodating to me haha....one of the things was i wanted to find someone to go with me to night class n he like immediately said yes, which was amazing..whoohoo!cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1116467349119115852005-05-18T18:46:00.000-07:002005-05-18T18:49:09.123-07:00everytime I try to forgetyou touch me somehowhow can I let you gowhen you keep doing it againwhat does it all meanyou are such a coincidencecerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1116118639613290162005-05-14T17:55:00.000-07:002005-05-14T17:57:19.616-07:00ahh...damn you.ARGH.these obsessionsyou, get over her already! cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1115182432097815202005-05-03T21:51:00.000-07:002005-05-03T21:56:41.233-07:00In the years to comeWill you think about theseMoments that we shared.. .The road ahead holdsdifferent dreamsfor you and I...In a year from nowMaybe we'll see each otherStanding on the same street corner......beautiful memories...so hard to let you go. cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1114394142954003752005-04-24T18:48:00.000-07:002005-04-24T18:56:30.366-07:00ahh...life's hot...i'm going off to church retreat next saturday! abbotsford baby! ahh so excited..then the youth rally the following week..and tests next week =( tt's the only downer now..coz it's the last lap, and i so gotta do well.. haha...hung out at imogen's on friday...it was awesome...living the canadian dream..her house, everything, was so canadian, what i've been dreaming of since i wascerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1113884626388108692005-04-18T21:13:00.000-07:002005-04-18T21:25:12.693-07:00I keep thinking I'm a little girl...outside, physicallyhis gestures...left me wondering ifI'm just a little sister,a little child to him.Am I wrong?But how can I not be?I cannot seem to see how a guycan look at me as anything besides thatcoz i've been treated as such all my lifethey always say i look so youngbut now...everything's differentpeople of all ages, family, friends, doctors...say I lookcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1112996411472812652005-04-08T14:30:00.000-07:002005-04-08T14:52:12.366-07:00You're everything pure...And beautiful...The only thing that is trueGod's been simply awesome...and i don't think he gives 'extra' blessings to anyone..we juz fail to see it sometimes, or should i say, most of the time...but lately...life's been..a dream..haha, well, it's been tough too, school stress and mild depression, but life is sooo beautiful, even with all my problems, fears...amazingly, cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1112055218741476712005-03-28T15:48:00.000-08:002005-03-28T18:26:04.780-08:00You make everything goodEverything wonderfulYou grace my daysAnd heaven fills my viewLet's forever singYou make everything pureEverything beautifulYou make me see the only thing that's trueIt's youAll I wanted was a special EasterOne filled with GodAll I wanted was to feel His LoveHis PresenceTo know His joy within meAnd I did...The best Easter in my life.I never expected it...O My God.Thank You cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1111730242810281732005-03-24T21:55:00.001-08:002005-03-24T22:09:35.913-08:00Sometimes...I feeldisplaced...replaced...f o r g o t t e nunlovedh o p e l e s sdetachedsometimes I'm justB R O K E N....don't leave it unspokendon't let it go unwrittenThis heart of mine...His creationcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1111469589457020872005-03-21T21:28:00.000-08:002005-03-21T21:34:14.743-08:00And then I realiseIt's been you all along....all these years...cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1110862285849040322005-03-14T20:41:00.000-08:002005-03-14T20:51:25.850-08:00hey gorgeous people...alright to answer right away, i'm coming back on july 3rd...YAY! i seriously cannot wait, how can it not be good, omg, last year was heaven on earth when i returned! But i'm only staying till like 28th or sth, which is pathetically short but due to circumstances, sacrifices had to be made...sigh, but quality, not quantity! anyways i've been down with the flu recently, cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1110429039066425922005-03-09T20:26:00.000-08:002005-03-14T20:51:43.293-08:00A year ago today.I set foot on canadian soil.To live. For good.This is my life now.I'm amazed I've come so farGrown so muchChanged so muchLearnt so muchBeen through so muchGod has been awesome.Sometimes I was just too blind...To seeSometimes I was just too caught up with myself andMy new life to realise ...Sometimes I took Him for grantedSometimes I scorned HimSometimes...most of the timeI failedcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1110263241341401312005-03-07T22:25:00.000-08:002005-03-07T22:38:02.013-08:00God send me an angel. please.sometimes it's too much to takeI will follow YouBecause You haveEven in the shadow of deathI will praise You...they are only paper tigers followin' mecerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1109746944674955762005-03-01T22:51:00.000-08:002005-03-07T22:25:18.093-08:00I love the attention you honger hotties...Keep it coming boyzCoz what's worse than being talked about?(esp if they're sex symbols)NOT being talked about.I see you looking at meLike I'm some kinda freakGet up out of your seatWhy don't you do somethin'I see you looking at meLike I got what you needGet up out of your seatWhy Don't YaDo Somethin'!cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1108670168882406312005-02-17T11:46:00.000-08:002005-02-17T12:03:01.076-08:00Do you remember..our lives...how we'd knock so hardjust to get inyet thrown out..ever so easily...the past fades and hardly reconciles my futurethe present...ephemeral & unappreciated..like the wind that blowswho knows where she comes from?..The stories behind their eyesI see the unformed tears that dryIt kills the spirit deep withinpast failures that haunt mewhy didn't I do what I should have...cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1108280267623940902005-02-12T23:21:00.000-08:002005-02-12T23:40:14.676-08:00Coincidence is to show how perfectly in tune God is with our lives.Take this typical example.Someone meets a long lost friend on the street. 2 lives are affected. Obviously it was meant to happen. Because a second later, one could have crossed the road, or gone into a store, and they would never have bumped into each other. And God obviously had it all planned, and all the details of our lives cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1107742541481022102005-02-06T18:09:00.000-08:002005-02-06T18:56:13.373-08:00Thanx maye for the new design..love it n really appreciate you still maintaining my blog tho i'm so far away =) can't wait for summer 2005! if only i could be staying longer though...but yeah, what's meant to be will be. pretty good week this week, in terms of ah-hem..but yeah, i refuse to believe that it is anything other than coincidence, cz i just dun wanna get my hopes up, although i feel it cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1107689906340946762005-02-06T03:33:00.000-08:002005-02-06T03:39:45.033-08:00hey darling, the previous picture exceeded its bandwidth, thus it got axed. ive gotten u a new layout, tell me if it's alright? the bandwidth problem wldnt exist now tt ive saved tis one t my graphics acc, so no worries.
i miss u terribly, cant wait t see u back in sgp agn. ive got u a lil present, will get it t u pretty soon. meanwhile do take gd care, love u very much.
love, maye.
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1107072176573308982005-01-29T23:45:00.000-08:002005-01-30T00:06:38.256-08:00Missions fest yesterday was...life changing =) i wish i could have gone throughout the weekend too coz it's a 3 day thing..ah well, the speaker was sooo good and definitely inspirational..and it was really fun....the singing, and seeing Jan again..hung out with Krys after tt for about an hour..omg, outside the convention hall is sooo suntec city, i completely died of homesickness. it was so cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1106879580773535822005-01-27T18:24:00.000-08:002005-01-27T18:33:00.773-08:00it always seemed better...then.
i was stronger...then.
i was happier...then..
now it's all...i don't even know what to say
my words don't come out like i want them to
my dreams are...not worth it..
my thoughts are...disposed of..
my feelings are...uncertain..
my songs are...ones sung before..
so near..yet so far away...
do they have any idea how much i miss them
i still love em..even more than cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1106536551188151572005-01-23T19:01:00.000-08:002005-01-23T19:15:51.186-08:00oh my gaaaa...there are so many signals and signs..please, please, don't lead me on...how can it be sooo coincidental..even on the weekend, when he's nowhere in sight, and i'm doing a grp project, and they bring him up. they bring him up. like out of the blue. and i find out things i've always wanted to know, all the facts, straight out, and i didn't even have to ask anything..all my inner cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1106278026771761282005-01-20T19:13:00.000-08:002005-01-20T19:27:06.770-08:00today was too good to be true. this whole week actually. it's been awesome, so great, i cannot believe it..haha..first of, i started liking JY's really good fren, well since the start, i thought he was like different and had the x-factor and everything, and even my good fren thot so too...yeah, but i'm still crushing on jy, no, lusting actually. ok whatever, but ever since i started liking his cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1105943110857698792005-01-16T22:07:00.000-08:002005-01-16T22:25:10.856-08:00I had a really good weekend after a long school week. so really thank God for that..went shopping with jan yesterday, omg, the sales are soooo awesome...i think today's the last day for boxing day sales? anyways, so got quite a bit of cheap quality stuff...the coolest shades ever for a dollar? omg! yeah, i could have spent my life there. ok, maybe not. and today church was cool too, at least i cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1105423477818714172005-01-10T21:56:00.000-08:002005-01-10T22:24:25.370-08:00yesterday was my 4month NER (check glossary). nvm, i'll juz tell u..non-existant relationship with a certain someone..i know!! it's a pretty long time actually, but it doesn't feel that long, and i juz love counting, i dunno, weird things excite me. and i asked my parents to clap four times. and they did. and they asked what for. and i said for my 4month anniversary la..and they were like...ok, cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1105064452809471562005-01-06T18:10:00.000-08:002005-01-06T18:20:52.810-08:00Today it started snowing. the beauty. the purity. white winter wonderland..the once green field now completely white...amazement..awe...how beautiful God's creation is..haven seen snow since i was a baby, have no recollection, hence i was uber excited with it..i was already fascinated with the frost and tiny snowflakes that froze on the car before the snow came. Each of them had an intricate cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1104621914578313232005-01-01T15:23:00.000-08:002005-01-01T15:57:47.240-08:00hey what's up 2005!
another year gone by. let's make 2005 better than the last!
i juz got back today..and i didn't have internet access where i was, so i was shut off from the cyber world..but yeah, i had a really good time..it was fun, better than i expected..and i got to watch ocean's 12 again, well, hey they paid for me..and yeah, played games, bonded with grandparents..it was pretty cool..icerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1102921522940005532004-12-12T22:50:00.000-08:002004-12-12T23:05:22.940-08:00This weekend's been great...basically, saturday went and watched ocean's 12...matt damon is so yummy, uh huh..and at nite, went for the christmas pot bless party..it was really fun...jan came too and there was this other guy there, so we all hung out for hours...the food was awesome. and last thursday and friday, i stayed back with my fren to do recording for christmas songs..the first time, we cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1102400008026404462004-12-06T22:03:00.000-08:002004-12-06T22:13:28.026-08:00I got confirmed yesterday =D it wasn't as bad as expected, the speaking in front of the church, it was prettycool..i'm happy! yay! i'm finally confirmed =D and last night, went with family to watch this broadway church christmas play called The Singing Christmas Tree, it was pretty good..yup, just that what was really freaky was my dejavu again..i had never been to the church before and yet, cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1101970803391510072004-12-01T22:39:00.000-08:002004-12-01T23:00:03.390-08:00I am soo happy. i know, i'm always going up and down, in every entry, but that's just me. and every teen i suppose. omg. my dream came true. i've always, ALWAYS, wanted to record in a studio, you know singing songs and stuff, not coz my voice is oh so great, it isn't. it's completely untrained and unprofessional, but i juz love singing. music is my life. omg i can't go one day without some music cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1101795086877512092004-11-29T22:00:00.000-08:002004-11-29T22:11:26.876-08:00I'm getting confirmed on sunday. and some guy who heard of it, who had absolutely no understanding of that term, thought that i was gonna get married and started freakin' out in sadness n all..right. at 17. *bangs head on wall* ANYWAY, i want this week to end. asap. the weekends are always better for me. i don't think very much about anything anymore. there is no point. juz that parts of my worldcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1101362231394320322004-11-24T21:32:00.000-08:002004-11-24T21:57:11.393-08:00today was so awesome..omg...yeah first off..something happened that made me really sad and made me feel so lucky at the same time..and made me feel so bad and touched and everything. maybe God will let me know this person more. then we had the elizabethan feast which totally rocked..i really didn't expect it too...it seemed such a lot of work, the costume, us caterers..but it all paid off..and cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1101277410641085852004-11-23T22:19:00.000-08:002004-11-23T22:24:04.520-08:00Don't mess with me
Coz I'm always one step ahead of you anyway
Try to screw up my life
you'll regret
Don't outsmart me
Coz I'm smarter than you anyway
My life's tough enough
I don't need your extra crap
I can't stand it when people fail to know their limits
Or mine
Get a grip
Or lose it
thanks for bringing out the bitch in me
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1100845012859180532004-11-18T22:06:00.000-08:002004-11-18T22:16:52.860-08:00Had my grad photos taken today..they actually had a madeup session..coz i din sign up for the studio sessions (coz i cdn't care abt being in the yrbook) but anyway, pretty fun..the photographer was so nice to me! lol..teachers and ppl here are so funny and nice..LOL...ohh...my gosh..so i had to take off my jacket to put on the gown and all so i'm like rushing back to class after that..so i was cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1100378802034895812004-11-13T13:26:00.000-08:002004-11-13T12:46:42.033-08:00Youth rally yest was awesome!! OMG!! i didn't expect it to have such a powerful effect on me, but it did...and life has been regaining meaning for me, these past few weeks, but this totally nailed it..i don't know, the worship, the talk, it was all so impactful, and i'm glad i went..and i'm so glad jan wanted to come too...it's been a long while since i had someone to chat this long with, besidescerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1100227939211589552004-11-11T18:39:00.000-08:002004-11-11T18:54:13.213-08:0086 years ago today, 11am. World War I ended.
Veterans Day, Remembrance Day.
Yes, we will remember.
Those who died, so we could live.
Those who suffered, so we'd have peace.
It isn't fair at all
That a 17 year old, should go to war
When he had his whole life ahead
And more
We've been studying ww1 in socials, so I kinda understood and felt the significance of this day. Besides, in singapore theycerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1099972113547887962004-11-08T19:29:00.000-08:002004-11-08T21:00:59.086-08:00I don't owe you an explanation for everything i do. everything i am. some secrets are not meant for the world to hear. they're not meant for you to know. some stories should never be told. what makes you think i ought to tell you my entire life story, i am not obliged to. especially when we barely know each other. and even if we do, do you know how hard it is for me to talk about it? respect. me.cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1099778832917814002004-11-06T13:48:00.000-08:002004-11-08T19:29:24.580-08:00Light in my darkness
Hold me together
Something's missing. Something's wrong. But i can never figure it out. I'd like to pretend it's ok, and cover it with appearances but it's not gonna work. I'm tearing myself up within. God help me. Please. it's been so long. i don't know for how much longer i can take it anymore.
I have travelled many moonless nights
Cold and weary
to the guyz: girls are cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1099534874792965232004-11-03T17:58:00.000-08:002004-11-06T13:48:03.470-08:00Now and then I always wonder to myself, if i died tomorrow, would i be happy?
..and my answers always differ, depending on my mood..
of coz if i were in love and all that i wouldn't wanna die, not yet, maybe when i breakup or sth.
and when i'm depressed (which was yesterday), i would be like yes, whatever, let's just end this crap. (this is different from initiating ur own suicide duh)
and when cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1099114022222301302004-10-29T22:05:00.000-07:002004-11-03T17:58:34.466-08:00My 5 Major Turn-Ons
1. Hong Kong guyz...i juz have a thing for them..i go gaga over every other hk hunk i see, so it's juz tragic that i have below zero interest in the only 2 i know that like me.
2. HK/korean/ jap look-alike (or the real thing is better) guyz who speak with a canadian accent and not broken canto-mixed english. there are tons of asian guys who speak with accent, but they gotta cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1098682389084880422004-10-24T22:22:00.000-07:002004-10-29T22:05:25.003-07:00i have a bio test tmr and i'm online! haha...studied so much already, i dunno what else there is to learn...they really shd have TYS stuff here, or assessment books, do they? coz i think tt'll help me...yeah..i finally FINALLY got my haircut, and i love it ;) it's about time..and my mom cut it, so i could tell her exactly how i wanted it teehee =D Carly said she liked it, so tt's cool! haha...cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1098334095380995162004-10-20T21:36:00.000-07:002004-10-24T22:22:06.300-07:00wrote sth but it got deleted so tt's screwed, but whatever..guess it's not meant to BE posted up, guess it was pretty wrong of me to actually be thinking that way...but it's juz a fantasy...and anyway that's juz the other side of me that nobody wants to see, yeah? school's cool...we got friday off again, so yeah! but i'll be studying mostly..coz we have like 2 tests next week, and yeah...JY is cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1097813062759284772004-10-14T20:56:00.000-07:002004-10-18T22:20:51.253-07:00so many people left home this year..
and we're all making new lives at different points of the globe..
we're having experiences we never had before...
but can they be compared to what we left behind or what we had before?
what is this life anyway?
full of dreams, loves, lies, memories...
and then it'll fade away when it ends
and it'll be like we never walked this earth before
millions will walkcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1097546832415764172004-10-11T18:50:00.000-07:002004-10-14T18:12:35.020-07:00i knew i was gonna get sick sooner or later, but whatever. urgh. i cannot miss school..utterly CANNOT miss school! not only coz i'll have tons to catch up on, but what about my regular prescription of eye candy? i know, totally tragic. but yea...i'm obsessed with school and him. and i had to miss church yesterday coz i was sick! DANG! dang dang..but whatever! yeah, tt can totally be my motto. oh cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1097391972152243742004-10-09T23:56:00.000-07:002004-10-11T18:50:27.756-07:00My summer sunshine
My autumn breeze
My winter warmth
My new crush, JY. =) haha..more like eye candy to crush..yeah..but whatever, at least then there's something in school to look forward to and be happy about when stuff happens..like when he's so polite and gentlemanly to ladies like me ;) HAHA yeah rite..i dunno if i'm going to prom nite..yeah, here is such an uber big deal..they have all cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1096955888682683912004-10-04T22:47:00.000-07:002004-10-09T23:56:10.676-07:00In these eyes
More than words
More than anything that I've spoken
As the skies turn to grey, my heart's just about to crack open
So the story goes..
Now you know...
He's my eye candy
Yet I have a crush on him
Then again, I like him
but I know who
I'm gonna fall in love with
for the rest of my life.
so many guys in a girl's life
Life's complicated
It's unfair
But it's beautiful
and it's awesomecerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1096596345921928792004-09-30T19:00:00.000-07:002004-10-04T22:47:02.303-07:00Any moment everything can change
For a minute, the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday
And so I am. Farewell. I've left it all behind. No turning back. I'll be happy with what I've got and not. This is the life now. And it's better than what's worse.
Quit the desperation
Shut out your dreams
It's over now
I don't know what I want. I don't know what I'm looking for. I don't know how to findcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1096415213146450642004-09-28T16:35:00.000-07:002004-09-30T18:59:53.323-07:00And though I'm far from perfect
You see beyond this reflection
You want me to smile
But you're cool when I don't
You go the distance
You forgive me
When I, look the other way
Sometimes I'm such a bitch
Yeah, I know it baby
But you always come back
Like a cute good ol' puppy I can rely on
Do you know that I am happy when
You do those things you do?
But I would never tell you my feelings
Though cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1096152795701605932004-09-25T15:47:00.000-07:002004-09-28T16:34:46.830-07:00I've seen you
In some distant place
In some dream
With mists and swirling stars
Singing crystals and twirling beams
The rays gently chide me
The wind carries me on
Towards you I drift
Like a spirit, I lift
I reach out
But then...
Shadows befall
Darkness covets my lonesome heart
And you..
you just fade away
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1096004515759532952004-09-23T22:38:00.000-07:002004-09-25T15:46:53.963-07:00take me away
so many wrongs
will they ever make a right
will i ever be content
will this endless spinning never end.
life's good
on the outside
but
my makeup's wearing thin
that's some cheap foundation she sold me
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1095820599224173192004-09-21T19:29:00.000-07:002004-09-23T22:38:30.156-07:00i miss those days.
my happy days.
never seemed to end
when i was desperate
somewhere near
there was always a friend
wash away
then was then
now it's all perfunctory
nothing deep
just skin deep
just for fun
temporal
fleeting
i need something real
i don't want to keep falling
and see no end
darkness all around me
depression again and again
facades rule
how can they be so cruel
slicing words
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1095394428803197462004-09-16T21:06:00.000-07:002004-09-21T19:29:17.470-07:00i'm lucky. school's good. i really enjoy my subjects. that makes up for the other crap i go through. and i think i'm real lucky. i'm beginning to really like them, the twins. like i mean, they are so nice to me, they are really nice guyz i'm so serious...and they're goodlooking. but i dun like them enough to go out with them. and if i do. which one? and i can't make up my mind. the problem is i'mcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1095291409056214512004-09-15T16:34:00.000-07:002004-09-15T16:38:33.576-07:00~~~~~~~~~~~~~
no connection.
no feeling.
liberation
yet desolation.
emptiness.
fullness.
tangled together
thoughts unseparated
birth of miles and eons
breakthrough between us
rekindle thy spark tomorrow
nymph on the loose
you ask me
dust or lust
i won't tell you
let me just
show you
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1095038697771622792004-09-12T18:17:00.000-07:002004-09-15T16:33:56.663-07:00i juz wanna say thanx. to all the awesome, comforting emails i received when i was going thru all that crap last week. yeah, and the encouraging comments and stuff..and to my church frenz here, thanx so much for turning my sucky week into something good..it was great hanging out with them on friday and today..juz took my mind off a lot of unhappy stuff...i watched bourne supremacy yesterday, cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1094785831657885572004-09-09T20:09:00.000-07:002004-09-12T18:16:48.530-07:00it's juz a facade
don't bother
finding out the truth
coz i ain't telling
and no one knows
or cares
everyone's got their own crap to get through
depression
my soul is torn
no words to express
nobody
so lonely
so cold
i rather have
eternal rest
it's all a facade..
ignorance is bliss
there's a million reasons why i cry
hold my covers tight and close my eyes
watch me bleed, would you listen cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1094579835432831262004-09-07T10:40:00.000-07:002004-09-11T00:14:44.036-07:00don't walk away
all of the things left undiscovered
leave me waiting and left to wonder
anyway, today first day, well juz about an hour. i am SO glad i went already in march so basically knew some people and all. but yeah, my good friend has graduated so i'm out looking for lunch mates, or i'll juz have it by myself like i did many a time. no big deal. i'm so excited about my subjects and cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1094446356060168412004-09-05T21:45:00.000-07:002004-09-05T21:53:23.123-07:00why did they have to put that ad up there or whatever..now my words are blocked off..anyways, i went back to church today..some people look better, some look the same...some didn't have the same effect they had on me weeks back..some did..ok, only one..i think he is..ok, nevermind. this is way too personal but i am gonna start praying about it, coz it's so important to me..and i'm picturing 'reelcerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1094315864863436662004-09-04T09:33:00.000-07:002004-09-04T09:38:24.893-07:00i didn't have any urge to blog in sg..but now i do..which is weird...but i know i'm not alone in thinking that i should abandon this blog..i mean, who comes here...ah well..i'm so disoriented..like everyday's the same..and i'm trynna get over jetlag..and i know soon the homesickness will set in, if it isn't already..but yea..church on sunday again..it'll be good to see some familiar faces again..cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1094187361746320352004-09-02T21:49:00.000-07:002004-09-02T22:00:00.140-07:00and i'm back.
44 days.
what can i say
i'm more blessed than i deserve, as usual.
those days back home were superb, fantastic, awesome, amazing
i didn't wanna leave
but it ain't a two way street
don't know when i'll be back again
and i loved everyday
sometimes being away makes you appreciate stuff u take for granted
like just a bus trip on 111
to heeren
gosh..i savoured every moment
believe it or cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1092113796790789852004-08-09T21:39:00.000-07:002004-08-09T22:01:51.806-07:00sometimes a moment..lasts and lasts forever..
and then all of a sudden
its gone
The quote's not exact coz i can't really understand his strong american accent, but this is one of the many things i got out of watching One tree Hill, yeah, dumb name, but awesome show..the best serial i've seen in years. ok, the only reason i started watching it was coz of Chad, tt hottie actor, then i realised cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1091681488674442232004-08-04T21:38:00.000-07:002004-08-04T21:51:28.673-07:00I went to search for my blog. and where do i find it. linked on some vehicle selling page. it's not like there were a dozen links there, juz like 10 or so and mine was one of them. what the hell is up with that? there is NOTHING here about vehicles, so if you've followed the link here, get out. this is juz a blog of a young, baby girl. nothing interesting. and if u're a paedophile, u better run cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1091422371717674672004-08-01T21:43:00.000-07:002004-08-01T21:55:18.886-07:00Time..
Last year..it was stressful..but it was simple..like everything was just laid out for us, and we just took what was given..it was routine, but awesome at the same time.
This year..everything's moving so fast..and everything, everyone's changing..and so many millions of things are happening..some of which better..new experiences, priceless moments...
But..
but..
is it really better?
I cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1091165591764905722004-07-29T22:25:00.000-07:002004-07-29T22:33:11.766-07:00and you tell me it's gonna be ok..
thanx..i know everything will work out fine..
everyone's in school. bored. only weekends free. haiz. haha. but i'm used to stoning around. wasting time. i really should get a life. whatever. get a job. so worried. about finance. about our plane tix. still waiting. praying. we're tight. a few thousand more on plane tix could be put to much much better use. why cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1090820617533371612004-07-25T22:41:00.000-07:002004-07-25T22:43:37.533-07:00Home Sweet Home =)
It's nice to know, that everything's the same.
and yet, it's different in a way.
but it's still good.
It's still good.
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you
Like nobody else
cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1090049825065297882004-07-17T00:28:00.000-07:002004-07-17T00:38:01.456-07:00I can’t believe I’ll be coming back..tmr! well like leaving on the plane and stuff..yeah, these 4 months have been awesome. Thank God!!!!! I don’t deserve it. At all. Really. And yeah, singapore’s gonna be cool too I’m sure when I go back =D today was hot, boy toy actually asked me out, well like a friend (I think …LOL) and we caught a movie together. A Cinderella Story. I know, he’s so nice, to cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1089620597754541932004-07-12T01:13:00.000-07:002004-07-12T20:00:34.456-07:00I miss you...and you..and you..
Can't wait to hang out with you cool peepz again..
I miss orchard road..
I miss HMV Heeren..
I miss PS..
I miss esplanade..
I miss clarke quay..
I miss church..
I miss TBP..
I miss cj..
I miss crescent..
I miss sac..
I miss the whole damn place
I miss...
but by next week, the missing will be over, and i'll be missing it here, maybe? =)
Lena! get ur ass down to cerayenoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6161387.post-1089446139780165042004-07-10T00:49:00.000-07:002004-07-10T00:55:39.780-07:00cool day! played something like baseball and capture the flag..at strathcona park..it was rad..haha..=) i was so happy to read the messages people wrote for me in the bdae card from church..like the personal ones..P wrote twice!! whoohoo! and all about keeping in touch and stuff..=D ok, whatever. and recently, ever since i got boy toy's msn, we've chatted a bit. and he's a smart guy. i still cerayenoreply@blogger.com